A Day of Bunny Trails...

Long time no blog right (laugh/smile)?

Forgive me for not journaling as regularly as I have purposed.
The birth of a new little boy, pre-school for my almost 5-yr. old, and a new burst of energy has
kept me pretty busy during this Fall season!


The title of this entry has been inspired by a friend and neighbor of mine who talks about her bunny trails. Bunny trails (according to her definition) are thoughts that rapidly run around in your mind (thinking about what's for dinner, tasks for the week, projects that are overdue, appointments, dreams, ANYTHING that hops all around in your head)!


This entry will be just random thoughts that have been running around in my head, that I hope and pray will make you smile, laugh, cry, and most importantly be INSPIRED!

So here are just SOME of my bunny trails (Thanks Jamecia for this term: I love it!) I would like to share with you:


A View Like No Other: Atlantic City:
The view from this room is breath-taking! The boys are sleep and my family is out and about
as I sit here at the desk in our room watching the beautiful view from the Water Tower at the Borgata. This is my first time here and since I have some quiet time right now I thought I would get started on my blog (it's been a long time). I have so many creative thoughts going through my mind along with all the TASKS that need to get done for my family, for me, and for other organizations I am involved in (here comes the bunny trails...). Yet I can't seem to get my mind off this amazing view! I love all the flashy lights and watching the headlights of all the cars below cruising around beautiful AC (Atlantic City)! And I now look at both of my boys who are so peacefully sleeping: what a blessing and a joy!


Stop living in fear! Start living in confidence!:
Hmmm, that sounds pretty good! I am so afraid of other people's opinions and thoughts, that I have kept all my own thoughts and creative ideas to myself. And yet God is always working on me bringing me up and out of my shell. I must say it is pretty hard, coming out because I am so used to just bottling all that I want to say, give, and do in and it has become a comfort zone for me. I fear my own confidence. Does that make any sense? And there is this feeling inside of me that says, "Fear, you are no match for me and my confidence! You are just a distraction. I have God on my side and He is always there to bring out the confidence He has in me. So go away!"

So I try to stay focused on this feeling! With God, all things are possible! His way is THE way!


Don't Try to Out Smart Time:
Every time I try to say to myself, "Okay I am going to do X at this time today, then Y, then after I am done with those, then Z." "Yea right!" Time says to me! Who am I kidding? There is NOT enough time in the day....you know the saying! We always think we have time to do all the things we want to do. Yet with kids, chores, school, and appointments, doing it ALL ain't gonna happen! And sometimes, when I don't get what is on my list done, I sit still breathe, then all of a sudden tears begin to run down my face. And I just feel so overwhelmed. And sometimes it feels good to get the cry out because I know that it is okay to cry. I close my eyes as I cry and sometimes my 4yr. old may catch me and ask, "Mommy are you okay?" And I say, "Yes sweetie Mommy is doing just fine." The funny thing is that I am doing just fine. Even though it is sometimes overwhelming, I refuse to let it get the best of me. So I no longer try to out smart Time because Time is so precious. And if more of my time and attention needs to be shifted towards my boys, instead of those things on The List, then so be it.


So when I cry, it's like God comes over to my side, grabs my shoulder and says, "April, it's all good because I want you to enjoy life. Stop wasting time worrying about the fact that you don't have time! And start living peacefully because I will take care of it all." And then at that moment, I sometimes cry even more because He is so right and it feels so good to know that He is there. Of course I couldn't have the positive and peaceful attitude that I have- without Him.


It feels good to cry and smile at the same time! Ever done it? I encourage you to give it a try.
When you feel so stressed, when you feel overwhelmed, and the tears begin to flow, let go and let God. When you think of Him I guarantee you'll begin to smile, maybe even give a laugh!


And then the bunny trails cease for just a moment as you stop to focus on Him for just that period of time.
They (bunny trails) return and the cycle continues. Just knowing that God is there with me each and every time makes it ALL WORTH IT!


Enjoy your bunny trails and don't let it take charge. Give it all to Him!


Until the next entry.....


Love & Many Blessings
- - ats